documenting the BL fan experience

Tag: She/They

28, SHE/THEY, ARGENTINA

28, SHE/THEY, ARGENTINA

I guess being into BL was my way of exploring my sexuality for years without really noticing I was doing it. I had a very late “gay awakening” (at 21), which also helped me open up in terms of sexual acceptance, but it didn’t really…

28, SHE/THEY, USA

28, SHE/THEY, USA

BL (and GL) has always been a safe space for me since I was young— a space to explore kink and sensuality, love and romance, gender, and relationships. Having friends in the BL community was a guarantee of acceptance and that was a huge comfort…

28, SHE/THEY, ARGENTINA

28, SHE/THEY, ARGENTINA

On one side, it was because of piracy that I was able to find BL content in the first place (downloading anime and manga, and later on doujinshi). When I got into online fandom, nobody debated where the content had come from, we never stopped to think someone was the creator behind what we consumed. Just like everything else on the internet, we thought it was “there”, it was “free” to access. It was quite a few years until I started seeing and comprehending what piracy was, that it affects some parts of the industry more than we thought (you can’t compare the piracy of a multimillion hollywood movie with the work of a doujinka).

I’m glad to see that there are new subscription services for Japanese media that there weren’t before, and also for BL! The consumption dynamics are shifting towards less piracy and that’s super great to everyone involved.

I’m not gonna be a hypocrite though, I still consume pirated media, because I just can’t afford everything that comes out, every subscription service, every digital release. I grew up in an internet where all access is free and it’s hard to separate from that. I do try to support the stuff I like as much as I can afford and I really wish I could have a better income to spend on it. Regarding BL, I think Japan is slowly catching up with these new platforms for catching fans without losing money, and it’s a matter of time until there are more appearing, like apps like shonen jump has, but for BL magazines (haha).

— 28, She/They, Argentina

28, SHE/THEY, USA

28, SHE/THEY, USA

First experiences with BL: Yu Yu Hakusho and Prince of Tennis doujinshi and fanart back in 2003-2004. The first BL manga I bought was “Only the Ring Finger Knows”— very silly and romantic. I liked so many things about BL and shipping— the distance from…

28, SHE/THEY, ARGENTINA

28, SHE/THEY, ARGENTINA

I’ve lost connection with local fandom years ago. My only reference is when I table at local cons, and I interact a bit with the attendees. What I noticed, though, is that the BL public is way younger than when I got into BL. I…

18, SHE/THEY, BARBADOS

18, SHE/THEY, BARBADOS

It has become easier to find the specific content you want, however there are still quite a few barriers (language, cultural, economical, etc.) that still make it hard for others to discover. 

I believe we shouldn’t pirate BL (and any media, especially foreign media, in general). There is also the factor that many BL are made by small authors/companies compared to a multi-billion corporation, so to pirate it is still in somewhat poor taste.

However, there is still the issue that BL is still locked behind multiple barriers and is still extremely difficult to find/consume for people. For example: People who live in countries/environments where consuming BL work is illegal or can put you in harms way so purchasing it can be going into dangerous waters in of itself.

— 18, She/They, Barbados

26, SHE/THEY, MEXICO

26, SHE/THEY, MEXICO

BL, I liked everything I found to be honest. I discovered a lot from it, especially that people could love other people of their own gender. Ironically (or not), it made me discover GL and with GL I discovered my own sexuality. I’m more comfortable…

26, SHE/THEY, MEXICO

26, SHE/THEY, MEXICO

Spanish fandom is awesome. Like, there’s antis, sure, but there’s nothing like it compared to the North American/English fandom, because we’re still in the mindset of “don’t like, don’t read”. I do have friends from other Hispanic countries and they’re all supportive, even if they…

18, SHE/THEY, BARBADOS

18, SHE/THEY, BARBADOS

I feel BL is extremely diverse, there is no one linear way of how representation is/can be showcased in that medium and this applies to all queer media in general. Once again, at first glance it can be seen as “iffy” representation, but it’s just a need of expanding your genre taste. Not every queer story needs to hold the burden of being good/bad representation.

— 18, She/They, Barbados

28, SHE/THEY, ARGENTINA

28, SHE/THEY, ARGENTINA

Around the beginning, fandom was mostly my friends, the other people in the local anime forum/community, and some people on Deviantart. Social media didn’t exist yet. Instead of drawing for strangers on the internet, I filled up pages of drawings in my notebooks and brought…