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22, HE/HIM, VENEZUELA

22, HE/HIM, VENEZUELA

My first experience was actually adults getting me, an 11 years old “girl”, into a group called anti-yaoi brigade. In which they willingly taught me what it was and told me how it was gross (despite my mom being pro LG). A year later I was transferred into another school for personal reasons and met this girl who told me to watch BL for something nice. At first I was like “ew no” but as soon as I touched Sengoku Basara BL fanart out of curiosity… Something about it hooked me. I was a child that had grown up trying very hard to overcompensate strange feelings of not belonging in the labels that were chosen for me. I didn’t get what was wrong with me, but then BL opened that door up for me in which I felt oddly safe for the first time ever.

— 22, He/Him, Venezuela


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